Today, Marc is TWO months old! These past two months have flown by! It is hard to believe that he is only 3 weeks past his due date - as he has grown and developed so much since the end of February.
Marc has gained 4 pounds and grown several inches so that he has actually outgrown all of his premie - and most newborn - clothes! I remember when it was a lot for Marc to eat 1 ounce at a time, but now he has no problem with 5 ounces. Now, I am just waiting for - anticipating - his cute little face to look up at me and SMILE a social "I recognize you and am delighted to see you" smile. I love, love, LOVE Marc's smiles... but so far they have just happened randomly... I keep looking for the one that says "I know who you are"! In fact... two nights ago, I woke up around 1:30am to a silent house.. and thought, I should just go and peak in on Marc to make sure he is okay, still breathing, sleeping well... it didn't take much to talk myself into getting up out of bed to check on Marc. So I entered his room, dimly lit by a night light, and looked into his bassinet to see little arms flapping around, but no sounds (crying, grunting, etc) were coming from him. Still... not the sight of sweet slumber. I moved closer and bent over Marc to see what exactly he was doing (it was dark!) and saw his eyes wide open, looking up... and he had a HUGE grin on his face. YES! I thought to myself, my sweet baby boy is excited to see his mommy and is FINALLY smiling, on purpose, at me! So... impulsively... recklessly... not thinking through the situation or my actions... I was so taken with the moment we were sharing that I SPOKE. I returned his greeting with an equally large smile and delightedly said, "Hi, Marc!!!"
... and his head turned slightly towards me. He stopped smiling. His arms stopped waving around. And then he started to cry. Not a scared cry or a hungry cry... the demanding "you are here and I know it, so pick me up or I'll wake up Dad!" cry. My hopes crashed - he was not smiling at me, in fact he wouldn't even have known that I was in the room if I hadn't spoken... it was too dark, I guess.. Man.
So.. I shook my head at myself and picked him up - I owed it to him!... holding on to the hope that someday SOON his little face will light up when he sees his Mommy! :)
Here is Marc on his first day of life.
2 months old!!
Really, I have to stop and think where the time has gone.. 2 months seem to have passed by in a blink! Jarrod was home for 2 weeks of paternity leave and 1 week of spring break, my sister came for 1 week, and my mother came for a week and a half (overlapping a little with Jarrod's spring break). So.. that makes 3 weeks where I have been home alone with Marc. I thought I was going to have so much time to get projects done, reconnect with relationships... and do some work from home - perhaps prepare some Anatomy lectures.. work on the YISS Health Handbook.. Not so. Embarrassingly enough, it is a special day if I get to take a shower. Feeding Marc around 8 times a day (sometimes that boy could eat.. graze? for an HOUR if I would let him!) - changing many diapers, changing clothes that were peed on during the diaper changes (okay, this doesn't happen every day..), doing laundry that Marc generates from both ends, staring at Marc, playing with Marc, reading to Marc, taking pictures of Marc, talking to family on Skype about how wonderful Marc is, staring at Marc, snuggling with Marc, sleeping... well at short intervals during the day and night, talking to friends with newborn babies (Marc's "friends"), reading about vaccinations to give or not give Marc, staring at Marc... you get the picture! And then, of course, Jarrod comes home from work, we have dinner, spend some - short but sweet - time together, before I go to sleep for a (very) short while and do it all over again. And the days run together.. and two months later my little boy continues to captivate me!
This is my life. And I love every minute of it!




